Hey there 👋🏽
It’s been a while, isn’t it? A good 6 weeks! Life was tough and uncertain and challenging (both mentally and physically), let’s talk about it.
To be honest, I have lost touch with blogging so why not make a new format. Writing without any structure, simple English; just getting in the habit of writing.
It Begins
A lot of things have changed since we last spoke. Here’s a list to help you keep track:
Took a trip to Mt. Abu in Feb. It was wholesome, not to mention awesome!
Compulsory offline college started in Feb. This time it hasn’t been a smooth shift.
Wrapped 5th term’s final exams. They were a disaster.
Been on an emotional ride on friendships and relationships fronts for a while now, rather for the past 6ish weeks.
Had sports fest (Invictus) from 3rd to 9th March.
Major turbulent times. Feels a mix of all. Will try talking about it without giving away much.
6th term’s final exams are in a couple of weeks :/
(This blog might feel like a rant or I am complaining but trust me I am aware there are a lot of amazing things and amazing people in my life.)
There are a ton of things happening to me at once and not leaving me with many options to choose from. Either an exam or compulsory offline class or sports fest or assignments or college planning, something or the other is always keeping me on toes.
There are a couple of points I have picked about myself. I am an overthinker. That in essence means I make things difficult and bring negative conclusions by connecting half the dots. Another thing is I am not mindful of the situations. I do not live in the present, my mind basically wanders from place to place making the current situation difficult to absorb.
The biggest problem is offline college. The b.s. system is that the visiting faculty takes online classes and the proper faculty-faculty (thought it's mean to say permanent faculty) takes offline classes. I have 7 subjects this term, out of these 4 subjects are taken by visiting faculty (shoutout to Tejpal sir for making time for us :) means a lot for the class of ‘25). There are days when I just have an offline class and for that, I have to go to college. This brings us to a sweet total of an hour’s class + 40 mins traveling + chill or canteen sesh after the classes that usually ends up being a 4-5 hour trip :)
I am aware that college is meant for this and I should have fun and enjoy and these are days I will remember but bro 5 hours just for ONE CLASS, that’s tooo much. Anyways I am grateful for the people around me, they’ve got a lovely heart, at least for me. Can’t stress over the conversations and memories I have made that hopefully were special to them too. ALSO. I am trying to grow a relationship with this cute girl (just pray for me she doesn’t hold this) and that is investing. Time investment, emotional investment, heavy efforts, and tbh this is new to me. She’s sweet to understand and supportive but somewhere the comfort and security are yet to come but we’re in no hurry. P.s- we’ve had sooooo many conversations about our bond, where is it going, that it requires a huge ass novel but definitely a blog post somewhere down the line, I promise :)
Amidst this all, there are tasks and doubts and decisions yet to make that make me anxious and stressed at that moment.
This reopening of college hasn’t been smooth because of the postponed 5th term exams I had to take, choosing ‘friend groups’ (I have friends all over the place which is fine but lacks the purpose of ‘group’), sports fest which proved challenging, emotionally turbulent weekends (sometimes weekdays), and 6th term’s exams that are starting a couple of weeks.
Lately, I have been thinking about this blog and things I do on the side, including the long-due podcast idea. It’s important to have fun and enjoy the process. This blog started with the intention of documenting my life so it's time to get back to the roots, and maybe a few knowledgable or insightful and ofcourse mind baffling posts once in a while!
I guess it’s a pretty good life update and giving my keyboard some rest for the day let’s wrap this one. Until next time!
Take care :)